We suck at knowing what we really want out of life


I was just watching a video on Instagram of someone I went to college with. She posted a really cool video of her in Hawaii and all of the beaches, trails, and sites she was exploring. I was super jealous.

I was surfing IG in a downtown Portland office. You know the type, gray carpet, uncomfortable chairs in the waiting room those lights that make you feel depressed and makes your skin crawl. The ones that flicker in horror movies.

I leaned back in my chair after watching the video and thought:

  • How cool would that be to just take off, travel, and document it
  • If I didn’t have to come to this office I could just travel
  • But what would I do for money
  • How would I explain to myself and others why I quit

A bunch of other excuses cropped up and I went back to my boring thoughts.

Knowing what you really want is damn difficult

At times I think that I want too much.

I want a job that pays me well, that I am passionate about, that is interesting, that is in an industry I care about, and that let’s my time in the office be flexible.

I also want to travel, not be tied down by a schedule, leave on trips with little notice, and not worry about the money it takes to get there or visit countries abroad.

I want a career that is rewarding, that I am always growing in, that challenges me, but is fun.

I want. I want. I want.

But what do I need?

I have everything I need, yet I want.

How do I get where I want to go?

If you haven’t figured it out already this is a rant and will likely yield no definitive answers.

The only thing that this might do is have you shaking your head in agreement.

You might be thinking, me too!

So what do we do?

Well first things first, we should probably punch fear in the face.

I don’t travel to exotic places because I don’t budget my money well enough to afford overseas travel.

I don’t quit my job and find that rewarding career because I am afraid of where my money will come from. I don’t have a 3 month runway like so many financial blog recommend.

I am afraid I won’t find a good job, I am afraid that I won’t know how to get around a foreign place. I am afraid that if I take time off I won’t have a career to come back to.

I could see the interview now. Tell us about your experience.

“Uhh, I am good at catching Uber’s in foreign countries, and I like to try weird dishes that I have never heard of.”

Less than ideal for landing that dream job.

Unless they prize your creativeness and desire to see the World.

If you want something, you gotta really want it.

There really is nothing holding me back from traveling.

I could save up enough money and drive to a state I have never been to.

I could ask for time off and go hike a trail I have never been to.

Fear, laziness and comfort get in the way of me posting awesome videos on Instagram.

That and I don’t know how to edit videos all professional like that video.

Here’s to seeing our why and punching fear in the lip.


About The Author – Alex

I am on a journey of personal growth. I love learning about investing strategies and ways to actively improve my life. Follow along and connect with me if you are looking for a path to financial freedom and becoming the best version of yourself.

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